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thought i'll post about what happened lately but right now i'm distracted by a baby lizard that's roaming around in my room floor so yeah i'm like sitting with my feet up on the chair as well ahhh lizards gets me all itchy and they make me shake like literally my hands are shaking right now.

anyway i was just randomly thinking about how i used to make myself get fever to not have to attend school last year, i felt so stupid like everyone was smarter than me i felt inferior and like, why can't i understand this, why can't i score the test. i also remember those weekends where i would just lie on my bed thinking why am i even alive and probably noone would care even if i died. then to get rid of that, i got obsessed with this korean male group 2PM. like really obsessed, i think i watched all their videos on youtube - everything. oh, i remember i used to cry listening to a members voice okay i was that obsessed. that 'obsession' made me happier, but it was close to the 'o' levels.

*scans story*

so, in the end i couldn't get into any average courses in poly. all that's left was nursing which was a big NO. that point i was totally like whatever i'm going to ite. but my mom persuaded me to re-take my 'o' levels so here i am! i don't even regret it a tiny bit.

right here now everyone's here because we all have the same problem so i don't feel inferior, here the teachers don't stress us so much and they're not really like someone that'll eat you up, they're like your friends. the environment here is good too. and OMG haha so much gorgeous earthlings here *face lights up* xD

the point - i don't know i just feel alot happier in this year. of course i miss my close friends in my old school and the times we had together which gets me down at times. but, i wouldn't want to return to last year my obession was really crazy and silly.

sigh.. i finally let that out :>>

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