thoughts

I have been posting quite a fair bit of alcohol-related stuff lately and I would like to think that I'm just going through this phase.. 

I do like the feeling of being slightly intoxicated. I crave it sometimes.. like now wtf hahaha

But other than liking the drink, I like that I care less(than I do)about what other people think of me and it just makes me braver?? This is not an excuse but honestly, yeah.. who doesn't wanna be brave?

I hate that hide in my comfort zone every time I meet new people. Like why can't I just be myself any where and any time??

Actually I don't even change that much, especially in public. I don't go crazy and start dancing. There's still this something that's stopping me. UGH SO ANNOYING. I want to change but it's like my body has its own mind and doesn't want to listen.

I'm not sure if this is counted as something I should be happy of? Of course it isn't.

But I don't feel weird talking about NC-16 to M-18 related topics in public? And, in class,  when the teacher says something that sounds wrong and the guys laugh, I'll know why they're laughing. I kinda wanna blame tumblr for this. You're D-O-N-E if you join tumblr hahah. 

(well unless you stick to specific blogs like quotes/ inspo / fashion etc)

****ps. I think my blog layout is real cute c: 

Good night xx